Busted Can of Biscuits

I'm not the typical girl who likes to go shopping for clothes. I don't enjoy the process. I avoid it if possible.  But because clothes are a necessity I must venture out into the jungle and hope for the best. When I have to go shopping I have to gear myself up. I need to be positive and tell myself that there are things that won't work but I'll find something that will. It's a little speech before every trip. I have also learned that if I'm not in a good mood then it's better to try another day.

Recently I saw a card on Pinterest that said  "I think that it's weird how somedays I feel skinny and somedays I feel like a busted can of biscuits." Today I felt like a busted can of biscuits and broke my rule of shopping. I needed to buy pants because the washing machine ruined my favorite pair. Clothes shopping is bad, but jean/pant shopping is the worst. If they don't fit just right then the whole thing is a disaster. I knew what I was looking for and had specific needs. By far the worst experience. It's already difficult when you're not a 1 digit size to find regular clothes let alone jeans. Finding your size then finding the right type poses a challenge. Then comes the dreaded fitting room. Where hope comes to die. I don't know if it's just me but those mirrors are not faltering. I always feel like I'm in a fun house, which incidentally is not fun. I hate trying ill-fitting clothes over and over only to come out so discouraged and humiliated. 

What's worse is that it's not good enough to try one place but you must try at least 3 others places, which only confirms your self doubt and low self esteem. At a certain point everything begins to look the same and the sighing becomes heavier. The only thing left to do is to leave defeated and come back another day when you don't feel like a busted can of biscuits.

I hate those moments and tears are shed but once perspective sets in I remind myself that clothes are not the enemy and that moments like these don't define me.

"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalms 139:14